December :)

Well, December has begun and the Christmas season is upon us. I'm not sure whether to go out and buy Christmas cards to send to people or if an ecard would be a better option. I have decided that if I do the regular card thing, they will say CHRISTMAS and not HOLIDAY. "Holiday" cards to me make very little sense, because the ones I've seen all have Christmas trees on them, or a Nativity scene.

Today was a very interesting day, to say the least. It started out a bit late, as Sundays normally are for me. Thrown into the mix were  a few moments of randomness and some nice surprises for good measure as the day progressed. It really started after I left church. Someone had been trying to offer me a ride, as a lot of people do, because it was very cold out today. I kind of snuck out when she had her focus turned elsewhere, which may seem kind of mean, but sometimes, I just REALLY want to be left alone. That, and sometimes it's good to be a little self sufficient. Can't depend on people to help me all the time, even though it's really out of the goodness of their hearts. I ended up at LJS and just sat there with my food for a LONG time, just feeling sad and hopeless.

After a while of just sitting there, this woman came up, seemingly out of nowhere. She remarked that I looked so sad and lonely sitting there by myself. I smiled a little and told her it was ok, I was used to being alone. That always seems to shock people when I say that, but it's true. I spent a lot of time by myself as a kid, and found solace in that.  I was never that good at talking to people and even now, I just can't have long conversations. The exception is if the person is someone I've know for a while and have grown accustomed to. Eye contact isn't easy for me either. After a while, I HAVE to look somewhere else.

Anyway, this woman turned out to be a very interesting person, and we had a really good conversation about just random things. We ended up sharing a booth and it honestly felt like I had known this woman my entire life. While we were talking, I got to thinking about how God sends people to us at just the right moments, and when this woman showed up, I had been really wishing for that feeling of lonliness to go away. I really hope to encounter her again soon.

Well, my bed is calling and my eyelids are growing heavier with every minute I remain awake. Goodnight world.